WHy can they eat that much?

Okay, that sounds really mean.  But seriously sometimes I watch people and ask that question.  It’s not derogatory.  It is a question. Since I have been free of bulimia, I have learned how to eat anything in proportion.  I will eat chocolate.  One piece subsides my curiosity or feel like having… not craving, of which […]

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Happy Thanksgiving!

My six year old enjoying food and friends. I missed my family though. Well not my neighbour family or furry family. Missed my parents and two sisters and mostly my children.  My back was aching all weekend but I managed. And even if I didn’t feel fulfilled with my immediate family, I was thankful for […]

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Feeling Left Out

I’ve moved my whole life.  From childhood, to when I became a young adult, to when I got married.  I moved.  Total moves? 23.  Now most people would say, “wow”, and others would say, “so what”. I don’t know what caused this feeling of isolation and feeling left out.  My sister and I spoke about […]

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My sister daughter parallels…

My beautiful baby sister is a loving bowl of handful of loving, meanness, loving, arguing, loving, jabbing at your sore spots, loving, punch buddy, loving, don’t mess with me hate you, loving, push the buttons that turn you red, loving… My beautiful baby sister grew something up but not all and happy not all. But […]

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Baby Me to Adult Me In Conversation

I cried tonight again.  I felt emotions that I really never felt before.  WE never felt before.  I am here, sounding maybe a bit weird, but with my baby self and she calls me the mommy self. I spoke to my baby self tonight, one to the age of birth to approximately 11 years of […]

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A Horrible Reality

I am sure most people would find me heartless for saying this.  I will not miss one of my family members when she dies.  This person used to be a sister.  I don’t feel she deserves to be in my family unit.  The things she has done, the destructions, manipulations, disgusting acts of unkindness and […]

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