I don’t get it. The happier I feel the more people around me seem to try to put me down and control me. I have been fighting this for the past eight month and feel as though I want to burst. I’m crying right now for that exact reason. Beat up and bruised over and over again. I keep going though thanks to this site that calms me when no one else is out there to reach out to. Thank you. You make me happy. I just smiled. My tears now are just dropping left overs. Wow. What walking outside and finding this site and sunshine and the anticipation of tomorrow could do for mental health. Slight breeze and birds and the odd disappointment of the nasty neighbour.
I wonder why rooster are crowing at 7:21 pm? And why the neighbour is so sweet with his new one and so mean to me. Because I’m an ex? Please. He has three girlfriends. Oh ya…… beat the ex. Stay happy with the affairs. Move out? Not an option right now. But working on it.
Ready to ride tomorrow and trying to sleep when asked to move my car. Too many underlying details to explain my tears. But they have since dried up and I will sit for a while and contemplate life in the way I choose. Not as others do.