Strange that up until today I felt happy. Not feeling so today. I am not sure if it is because I am doubting myself in all aspects of life or that I am going into my 52nd year of life. They say this is normal for my age. Regrets and memories lost. Maybe but it is frustrating and as much so as the uncertainty in life. What is certain though and not a regret is my losing any desire whatsoever of going backwards when it comes to my eating disorder. It has only impacted me since my recovery in the way of regret for what it did to my beautiful teeth. Happy to be rid of that evil thing!