So I was upset. Mom hates me. Now I know why! I wasn’t supposed to be born! She’s right. I shouldn’t have been. She was going through a depression… so how did I come out of that? Like seriously?? If my mother was going through this severe depression thingy and and and and… ya.. she apparently was wishing she was dead… how on God’s earth did I come into existence?? OMG… Am I trying to figure out why MOM hates me? I don’t want to think about it. I don’t even want to know why mom is so upset that I liked hanging around with guys once her ropes let me go and then accuses me to be like a man??? What does she want? For me to be a lesbian? Sorry I’m not. I am so confused tonight so I’m writing for nothing. Why is it that if you don’t have someone in your life you are automatically considered something? Or nothing? Hey Mom, did you ever hear the word celibate?????